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January 03

2007,这样走过

 

看着FOX转播Time Square最后倒数的狂欢,在倒数的最后一秒突然意识到2007一去不返,只是还想回头看看,一生只有一次的200722

 

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不知不觉中度过元旦,寄出申请香港的材料,努力准备大学最后一个期末考试,这注定是离别的一年。考研,工作,留学,人生的轨迹在此处分离,渐渐清晰。

 

2-3

漫长的寒假开始,等待学校的消息,去国元实习认识了徐老师和汪老师,教我很多,谢谢你们。去上海面试香港城市大学,the very first interview,很紧张,认真准备却仍然手足无措,谢谢Xin给了面经,可惜我资质太差还是弄砸了 = =# 面试的prof.非常nice,于是信誓旦旦说只要城大要我就去他家。

 

4

一边等待消息一边仓促准备毕业论文,到现在还是觉得很幸运选了贵贵做导师,给了很好的论文角度,尽管3次换题让我一度懊恼沮丧,但是大量材料的搜集和分析也让我浅尝写论文的乐趣。谢谢亚平叔叔那么多个休息日和午休时间帮我理思路,分析研究角度,才让我写出了颇有逻辑的毕业论文;也谢谢ryan放着自己一堆钢筋混泥土结构不算,帮我写总结。

 

5

一封拒信,一个waiting list,一个admission,知道了drexel,于是开始犹豫徘徊。他考研没有成功,大家仍旧为毕业论文、工作面试奔波忙碌。离愁别绪渐浓。申请drexel7天后一纸admission,优柔寡断让我陷入困境,开始思考自己究竟想要什么。

 

6

答辩,散伙饭,毕业。答辩出乎意料的顺利,如愿拿到优秀;散伙饭上没有期待的眼泪,但是4年的感情在那一刻发挥得淋漓尽致,原来我们天涯咫尺。用4天时间颠覆了大学4年塑造的乖乖女形象,究竟哪个是真实的我?不相信毕业前一晚我们还起了争执,尽管知道其实你是为我好。会永远记住离校的前一天,感情从来没有选择,我不是你的幸福,祝福你。

 

7

连番的同学聚会,这是真正的离别,飘洋过海不知几时能再聚。月中第一次做瑜珈,筋脉还没打开就不了了之了;月底和骁,老鲁去深圳,HK。见到一些人看到一些事,开始了解社会也许就是这样,潜规则下有着各自的轨道,该学会适应么?去看城市大学,约到8月中旬的签证,time to say goodbye。因为豆豆重新见到他。

 

8

拿到签证的那一刻,心里竟不是高兴,说不出的滋味,只知道一切都已上路,不再回头。broke up,一切理由都显得多余,我还是会珍惜一年多的回忆,你需要的只是时间,你会成为好男人。五年后再见,我已不是原来的我,你呢?离开是放纵最好的理由,这个时间有点无奈,我只能问为什么不是五年前。

 

9

人生中最重要的一个月。临行前的机械式采购完全没有快感,让人崩溃。因为快要离开,爸妈对我前所未有的温柔,包容我诸多不懂事的任性行为,我心里都明白的,谢谢,我爱你们!913到上海,谢谢吴用哥和小陈哥一路送我;914浦东-芝加哥-费城,虽然不习惯离别,但机场分别那一刻我看起来还是轻松愉快地吧?妈妈哭了,印象中妈妈第二次哭。我说只是一年,一年后再见,你们保重,于是转身离开。踏上美国领土的那一刻我明白接下来是一个人的路,要靠自己。

 

多在家逗留一个礼拜的沉重代价是orientation周非常忙碌以及丧失了申请TA的最佳时间。虽然每天中文说得比英文多,但一个礼拜的洗脑始终提醒我,这是美国,一个完全不同文化和价值观的国度。我需要以某种程度上的改变作为代价来适应这个熟悉而陌生的国家。

 

10

Quarter制的梦魇。国内大学里闲散惯了,每周每门课都有作业还是让人抓狂,好在我是个爱学习的孩子,新鲜事物总不会让人太辛苦。我在适应,适应美式英语、印度口音、希腊口音、俄罗斯口音…;适应prof.的授课风格;习惯一个人上学放学;习惯读读不完的书,写写不完的作业。很幸运有JingCaicai两位室友,一个温柔贤惠,一个自律聪慧,总是把我的胃和脑瓜喂得饱饱的,谢谢你们。

 

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接踵而来的期中考试。Managerial accounting的期中考试让我非常depressed,不相信中国人也会拿B+,而我竟是这个不可思议的中国人。于是接下来的threaded discussion都很用心,花时间去读每篇10页纸的文章,花心思去想不一样的观点,拥有plus是件幸福的事,GPA强迫症症状日渐明显,开始为了小小的“+”去跟professor argue. 小强打电话来说be positive & be aggressive。我知道的,那是IB的世界,人不当人使的世界,有钱没生活的世界。但是为什么不去看一看?

 

洗脑的直接结果是去参加了Pennsingle party,认识了新的朋友,生活开始有意思起来,渐渐喜欢费城,尽管这是个号称每天都有枪杀案的危险城市。

 

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drexel第一个quarter的期末考试落下帷幕,4.0GPA最终带我走出managerial accounting的噩梦。在Willa的宿舍一起煮菜吃,看Heroes看到眼皮打架,久违的放肆;跟Ashley, Willmuseumshopping;和JingLeeShan一起驱车去BostonCaicaiChao教大家滑雪、洗照片、玩Clue;和Ashley, FangkaiBaltimore看水族馆,吃意大利菜…人们总是千丝万缕的联系在一起,现在我又不是一个人了,有你们在身边真的很温暖。

 

08年的第2天里写下这些,只想在今后某日停下的时候还能捧着这些只字片语还原记忆。AIR里说,人如果没有回忆是活不下去的,但是只有回忆也是活不下去的。有人说我变了,我很难说这种变化是好是坏,但是我在这里,我只能用这里的方式去生活,还是不够自我。前些日子和Lin联系上,很惊讶他竟在City UBIS,世上真是有太多巧合,太多的擦肩而过。

 

08年,

愿所有我爱的人平安,健康,快乐~

 

给自己:

明白地活

be positive, try to be aggressive

学会更好的安排时间

关心他人

多运动,少吃甜食

学做菜

每周给爸妈打电话

认真用力的爱一次(如果有可能有时间的话= =#

July 24

7月23日,写给昨天

     洗完澡,百度随便搜,找到这段——
      水瓶座爱情
      先看清楚,是爱情(不是友情),是人与人之间的爱情(不要对着你家的小猫小狗说爱…),属于水瓶座的真爱大多数(应该是必然)是建立于多年的友情的(尤其是女水瓶),因为水瓶的拿手把戏就是将向他/她示爱的人化作朋友。水瓶就是这样的人,狠狠拒绝你后还厚着面皮的联络你这个“朋友”。当水瓶面对压力时,工作上的,学业上的或是生活上的压力,而又没有朋友有空闲陪他/她时,他/她就会开始在众多朋友中“觅食”。外表帅不帅?美不美?他/她才不理这些,只要是够独特,与众不同而又多少有一点儿的才华,愿意陪他/她研究生命奥秘的就是对象。或许有天他/她会拖着一个火星人到市中心呢~而且水瓶的人很善变,今天拒绝了你后,过几天会突如其来的对你说喜欢你,但不要开心,他/她喜欢的…太多了……而他/她真正喜欢的…似乎…不会告诉任何人。水瓶不喜欢二人世界,有时水瓶出国旅行都坚持要自己一个或是跟其他朋友去呢……你的逻辑很奇怪,有时你可能会对对方说“既然到最后都是要分开,那又何必一起呢?”
     一些细节曾经惊人的相似,于是对号入座了。说起别人来头头是道,到自己却从来不是那么容易,总是摆出什么都懂的姿态,却一直做一切杂乱无章,随兴所至的蠢事,是我。永远只能得到一半爱情的水瓶,有朋友,却总是寂寞;有爱人,却总是冷漠。不是可怜,或可悲,只是自私。所以自作自受。二十年来,一直希望如果有来生,还能是个瓶子,总是煞有介事的说水瓶是多么超脱与不群;可是现在,希望是随便一个星座,除了水瓶。讨厌自己总是不知道在想什么,说什么,做什么,结果总是一片空白,却说了,做了。没法不相信冥冥注定,没法相信爱情,没法放下。是,我说谎了,我还是没法放下。
     如果你遇到上面一段中任何描述现象,请一定抵制,因为我是意志不坚定的人,是么?你说是。你也可以当成矫情漠视而过。没关系,只是希望我在你们眼里还是个爱笑,没大脑,絮絮叨叨,爱较劲,有点自卑但是心地善良的孩子。。恩,我只是不懂爱的小屁孩。
 
 

July 11

Corporate Finance-from Wikipedia

Corporate finance is an area of finance dealing with the financial decisions corporations make and the tools and analysis used to make these decisions. The primary goal of corporate finance is to enhance corporate value while reducing the firm's financial risks. Equivalently, the goal is to maximize the corporations' return to capital. Although it is in principle different from managerial finance which studies the financial decisions of all firms, rather than corporations alone, the main concepts in the study of corporate finance are applicable to the financial problems of all kinds of firms.

The discipline can be divided into long-term and short-term decisions and techniques. Capital investment decisions are long-term choices about which projects receive investment, whether to finance that investment with equity or debt, and when or whether to pay dividends to shareholders. On the other hand, the short term decisions can be grouped under the heading "Working capital management". This subject deals with the short-term balance of current assets and current liabilities; the focus here is on managing cash, inventories, and short-term borrowing and lending (such as the terms on credit extended to customers).

The terms Corporate finance and Corporate financier are also associated with investment banking. The typical role of an investment banker is to evaluate investment projects for a bank to make investment decisions.

Capital investment decisions

Capital investment decisions are long-term corporate finance decisions relating to fixed assets and capital structure. Decisions are based on several inter-related criteria. Corporate management seeks to maximize the value of the firm by investing in projects which yield a positive net present value when valued using an appropriate discount rate. These projects must also be financed appropriately. If no such opportunities exist, maximizing shareholder value dictates that management return excess cash to shareholders. Capital investment decisions thus comprise an investment decision, a financing decision, and a dividend decision.


The investment decision

Main article: Capital budgeting

Management must allocate limited resources between competing opportunities ("projects") in a process known as capital budgeting. Making this capital allocation decision requires estimating the value of each opportunity or project: a function of the size, timing and predictability of future cash flows.


Project valuation

In general, each project's value will be estimated using a discounted cash flow (DCF) valuation, and the opportunity with the highest value, as measured by the resultant net present value (NPV) will be selected (see Fisher separation theorem). This requires estimating the size and timing of all of the incremental cash flows resulting from the project. These future cash flows are then discounted to determine their present value (see Time value of money). These present values are then summed, and this sum is the NPV.

The NPV is greatly influenced by the discount rate. Thus selecting the proper discount rate - the project "hurdle rate" - is critical to making the right decision. The hurdle rate is the minimum acceptable return on an investment - i.e. the project appropriate discount rate. The hurdle rate should reflect the riskiness of the investment, typically measured by volatility of cash flows, and must take into account the financing mix. Managers use models such as the CAPM or the APT to estimate a discount rate appropriate for a particular project, and use the weighted average cost of capital (WACC) to reflect the financing mix selected. (A common error in choosing a discount rate for a project is to apply a WACC that applies to the entire firm. Such an approach may not be appropriate where the risk of a particular project differs markedly from that of the firm's existing portfolio of assets.)

In conjunction with NPV, there are several other measures used as (secondary) selection criteria in corporate finance. These are visible from the DCF and include payback, IRR, Modified IRR, equivalent annuity, capital efficiency, and ROI.

See also: list of valuation topics, stock valuation, fundamental analysis


Valuing flexibility

In many cases, for example R&D projects, a project may open (or close) paths of action to the company, but this reality will not typically be captured in a strict NPV approach. Management will therefore (sometimes) employ tools which place an explicit value on these options. So, whereas in a DCF valuation the most likely or average or scenario specific cash flows are discounted, here the “flexibile and staged nature” of the investment is modelled, and hence "all" potential payoffs are considered. The difference between the two valuations is the "option value" inherent in the project.

The two most common tools are Decision Tree Analysis (DTA) and Real option

The DTA approach attempts to capture flexibility by incorporating likely events and consequent management decisions into the valuation. In the decision tree, each management decision in response to an "event" generates a "branch" or "path" which the company could follow. (For example, management will only proceed with stage 2 of the project given that stage 1 was successful; stage 3, in turn, depends on stage 2. In a DCF model, on the other hand, there is no "branching" - each scenario must be modelled separately.) The highest value path (probability weighted) is regarded as representative of project value

The following example shows a portfolio of 7 investment options (projects), but the organization has only $10,000,000 available for the total investment. The calculation uses discounted payoffs (PV: Present values) in a 4 years projection. Bold lines mark the best selection 1, 3, 6 and ,7 which will cost $7,740,000 and create a payoff of 2,710,000. All other combinations would either exceed the budget or yield a lower payoff:

The real options approach is used when the value of a project is contingent on the value of some other asset or underlying variable. (For example, the viability of a mining project is contingent on the price of gold; if the price is too low, management will abandon the mining rights, if sufficiently high, management will develop the ore body. Again, a DCF valuation would capture only one of these outcomes.) Here, using financial option theory as a framework, the decision to be taken is identified as corresponding to either a call option or a put option - valuation is then via the Binomial model or, less often for this purpose, via Black Scholes; see Contingent claim valuation. The "true" value of the project is then the NPV of the "most likely" scenario plus the option value.


The financing decision

Achieving the goals of corporate finance requires that any corporate investment be financed appropriately. As above, since both hurdle rate and cash flows (and hence the riskiness of the firm) will be affected, the financing mix can impact the valuation. Management must therefore identify the "optimal mix" of financing – the capital structure that results in maximum value. (See Balance sheet, WACC, Fisher separation theorem; but, see also the Modigliani-Miller theorem.)

The sources of financing will, generically, comprise some combination of debt and equity. Financing a project through debt results in a liability that must be serviced - and hence there are cash flow implications regardless of the project's success. Equity financing is less risky in the sense of cash flow commitments, but results in a dilution of ownership and earnings. The cost of equity is also typically higher than the cost of debt (see CAPM and WACC), and so equity financing may result in an increased hurdle rate which may offset any reduction in cash flow risk.

Management must also attempt to match the financing mix to the asset being financed as closely as possible, in terms of both timing and cash flows.

One of the main theories of how firms make their financing decisions is the Pecking Order Theory, which suggests that firms avoid external financing while they have internal financing available and avoid new equity financing while they can engage in new debt financing at reasonably low interest rates. Another major theory is the Trade-Off Theory in which firms are assumed to trade-off the Tax Benefits of debt with the Bankruptcy Costs of debt when making their decisions. One last theory about this decision is the Market timing hypothesis which states that firms look for the cheaper type of financing regardless of their current levels of internal resources, debt and equity.


The dividend decision

Main article: The Dividend Decision

In general, management must decide whether to invest in additional projects, reinvest in existing operations, or return free cash as dividends to shareholders. The dividend is calculated mainly on the basis of the company's unappropriated profit and its business prospects for the coming year. If there are no NPV positive opportunities, i.e. where returns exceed the hurdle rate, then management must return excess cash to investors - these free cash flows comprise cash remaining after all business expenses have been met. (This is the general case, however there are exceptions. For example, investors in a "Growth stock", expect that the company will, almost by definition, retain earnings so as to fund growth internally. In other cases, even though an opportunity is currently NPV negative, management may consider “investment flexibility” / potential payoffs and decide to retain cash flows; see above and Real options.)

Management must also decide on the form of the distribution, generally as cash dividends or via a share buyback. There are various considerations: where shareholders pay tax on dividends, companies may elect to retain earnings, or to perform a stock buyback, in both cases increasing the value of shares outstanding; some companies will pay "dividends" from stock rather than in cash. (See Corporate action.) Today it is generally accepted that dividend policy is value neutral (see Modigliani-Miller theorem).


Working capital management

Decisions relating to working capital and short term financing are referred to as working capital management. These involve managing the relationship between a firm's short-term assets and its short-term liabilities. The goal of Working capital management is to ensure that the firm is able to continue its operations and that it has sufficient cash flow to satisfy both maturing short-term debt and upcoming operational expenses.

Decision criteria

By definition, Working capital management entails short term decisions - generally, relating to the next one year period - which are "reversible". These decisions are therefore not taken on the same basis as Capital Investment Decisions (NPV or related, as above) rather they will be based on cash flows and / or profitability.

One measure of cash flow is provided by the cash conversion cycle - the net number of days from the outlay of cash for raw material to receiving payment from the customer. As a management tool, this metric makes explicit the inter-relatedness of decisions relating to inventories, accounts receivable and payable, and cash. Because this number effectively corresponds to the time that the firm's cash is tied up in operations and unavailable for other activities, management generally aims at a low net count.

In this context, the most useful measure of profitability is Return on capital (ROC). The result is shown as a percentage, determined by dividing relevant income for the 12 months by capital employed; Return on equity (ROE) shows this result for the firm's shareholders. Firm value is enhanced when, and if, the return on capital, which results from working capital management, exceeds the cost of capital, which results from capital investment decisions as above. ROC measures are therefore useful as a management tool, in that they link short-term policy with long-term decision making. See Economic value added (EVA).


Management of working capital

Guided by the above criteria, management will use a combination of policies and techniques for the management of working capital. These policies aim at managing the current assets (generally cash and cash equivalents, inventories and debtors) and the short term financing, such that cash flows and returns are acceptable.

Cash management. Identify the cash balance which allows for the business to meet day to day expenses, but reduces cash holding costs.

Inventory management. Identify the level of inventory which allows for uninterrupted production but reduces the investment in raw materials - and minimizes reordering costs - and hence increases cash flow; see Supply chain management; Just In Time (JIT); Economic order quantity (EOQ); Economic production quantity (EPQ).

Debtors management. Identify the appropriate credit policy, i.e. credit terms which will attract customers, such that any impact on cash flows and the cash conversion cycle will be offset by increased revenue and hence Return on Capital (or vice versa); see Discounts and allowances.

Short term financing. Identify the appropriate source of financing, given the cash conversion cycle: the inventory is ideally financed by credit granted by the supplier; however, it may be necessary to utilize a bank loan (or overdraft), or to "convert debtors to cash" through "factoring".

Financial risk management

Main article: Financial risk management

Risk management is the process of measuring risk and then developing and implementing strategies to manage that risk. Financial risk management focuses on risks that can be managed ("hedged") using traded financial instruments (typically changes in commodity prices , interest rates, foreign exchange rates and stock prices). Financial risk management will also play an important role in cash management.

This area is related to corporate finance in two ways. Firstly, firm exposure to business risk is a direct result of previous Investment and Financing decisions. Secondly, both disciplines share the goal of creating, or enhancing, firm value. All large corporations have risk management teams, and small firms practice informal, if not formal, risk management.

Derivatives are the instruments most commonly used in Financial risk management. Because unique derivative contracts tend to be costly to create and monitor, the most cost-effective financial risk management methods usually involve derivatives that trade on well-established financial markets. These standard derivative instruments include options, futures contracts, forward contracts, and swaps.

See: Financial engineering; Financial risk; Default (finance); Credit risk; Interest rate risk; Liquidity risk; Market risk; Operational risk; Volatility risk; Settlement risk.


Relationship with other areas in finance

Investment banking

Use of the term “corporate finance” varies considerably across the world. In the United States it is used, as above, to describe activities, decisions and techniques that deal with many aspects of a company’s finances and capital. In the United Kingdom and Commonwealth countries, the terms “corporate finance” and “corporate financier” tend to be associated with investment banking - i.e. with transactions in which capital is raised for the corporation.


Personal and public finance

Corporate finance utilizes tools from almost all areas of finance. Some of the tools developed by and for corporations have broad application to entities other than corporations, for example, to partnerships, sole proprietorships, not-for-profit organizations, governments, mutual funds, and personal wealth management. But in other cases their application is very limited outside of the corporate finance arena. Because corporations deal in quantities of money much greater than individuals, the analysis has developed into a discipline of its own. It can be differentiated from personal finance and public finance.

February 25

土人土人。。。

因为业务不熟练,贴错了地方。。。汗颜,补贴在下,以慰绕绕同学给我更新的机会~
 
Q1:如果看到自己最爱的人熟睡在你面前你会做什么?
把他折腾醒。。。

Q2:写首自己最最喜爱的歌?
此位置依然空缺
 
Q3:当你最不知道穿什么颜色的时候,你会选择什么颜色?
黑白吧

Q4:2006年你最后悔的一件事是什么?
这个要和绕绕报保持一致,留学准备的过程真的让人遗憾。。

Q5:曾经有过最被感动的事是什么?
家人对我无理之举的包容

Q6:较喜欢爸爸还是妈妈 ?
怎么可以这么问呢。。。爸爸,妈妈还有我是幸福的一家阿~

Q7:你最想要的3样东西?
家人的平安和健康,爱我的我也爱的朋友们,天天期盼的offer

Q8:最后一次发自内心的笑是什么时候?
今天晚上
 
Q9:如果给你一个机会去世界上任何一个地方旅行?
埃及?或者土耳其?

Q10:如果时间能倒流你希望回到哪一时间?
初中没有分班之前

Q11:你心目中理想的爱人是什么样子呢?
十年,二十年或更久以后依然能一起笑一起哭的孩子

Q12:喜欢什么食物?
应该问不喜欢什么食物。。。

Q14:如果让你拥有一种超能力,你愿意拥有什么呢?为什么?
希望是不管怎么吃都不会胖的能力,原因,还用说明么?

Q15: 喜欢的电影?
挺多的呢,最近比较喜欢的是“布达佩斯之恋”(gloomy sunday的调子很不错呢)

Q16:喜欢的演员?
Antony Hopkins,最近中邪喜欢park shin yang(表砸俺臭鸡蛋。。)

Q17:如果有来生,你选择当?
还是女人吧

Q18:会主动向喜欢的人表白吗?
不会

Q19:会脚踏两条船吗?
不会

Q20:如果你爱的人不爱你怎么办?
为什么要爱不爱我的人呢?

Q21:赞成婚前同居吗?
不反对,就自己而言可能性不大
 
Q22:如果有一天,你生命中最重要的东西离你而去了,你会怎么办?
恸哭,擦干眼泪,学会坚强

Q23:如果从天而降99枚金币,你的第一反应是什么?
如果是突然会砸伤人吧?

Q25:如果让你选择做一个电影或小说中的角色,你会选谁?为什么?
还是喜欢做自己,毕竟做了20多年都习惯了。。。

Q26:在乎别人看你的眼光吗?会为了众人的反对放弃自己想要的东西或人吗?
说完全不在乎是假的,要看众人具体是谁了,如果是我非常在乎的人,有可能会。(说的很好,完全赞同!)
 
Q27:能够坚持异地恋情吗?
一两年后再来回答

Q28:容易受异性的诱惑吗?
什么样的异性呢?

Q29:在你心中谁最可信?
自己(有唯心论之嫌)

Q30:对未来什么打算?
未来十年的计划是要努力工作,孝敬父母(如果能找的Mr. Right我该感谢上苍)

Q31 这个问题我帮你修改为:所有人都爱你除了你爱的人,所有人都不爱你除了你爱的人,你选择哪一个?
前者

Q32:喜欢的动漫?
air吧,坚持看到7集以后

Q33:近期最大的愿望?
尽快从等待中解放出来

Q34:有恨过谁吗?
貌似曾经有过,但现在忘了

Q35:希望多少岁结婚多少岁生小孩?
一切都该顺其自然

Q36:如果婚姻中自己出现精神外遇,会怎么办?
道德和理性的双重枷锁。。。
 
Q37:最打击你的事情?
违背自己的心

Q38:你会出于善意不让我担心而欺骗隐瞒我一些事情吗?
有可能。

Q39:如果有一天我和你吵架了,你会怎么办?
会吵吗?

Q40:最后吃的东西?
这题啥意思。。?

Q41:现在想买的东西?
安身之所

Q42:当你被我点名的时候是什么心情?
点什么名?- -#

Q43:现在几点?
23点18分

Q44:上一次哭是什么时候?
昨天夜里,梦中

Q45:现在最想对我说什么?
以你的聪明才智,还有什么事是做不到的呢?
 
Q46:今年情人节怎么过的?
和几个朋友吼歌,然后回家

Q47:希望下个情人节怎么过?
如果没有意外,应该是苦读中。。。

Q48:最喜欢自己身体的那一部份?
上帝啊!你是在昏昏欲睡时造我的么?!

Q49: 喜欢放假吗?
放多久?

Q50:最后一问,你怎么评价我这个人?
见面说
November 27

final decision

艰难的选择之后还是想自己试试,就算失败又怎么样?
总比不能认清自己要好。
也许会走不了,不过一年时间看清自己,值了。
谢谢鼓励我的绕绕,被我左右摇摆快逼疯的绕绕,一起加油:)
July 04

随意

站在旷野
我眺望你的世界
到底谁 
爱上了就会拼命的给
冰冷的街 
温热想你的感觉
你的美 
我是那个被感动的谁
蔚蓝的海 
像泪
为了爱 
不忍离开
咸咸的存在 
我放不开
把思念拿来晒
你味道还在
我背向海 
等蔷薇花盛开
等你回来 
我默默期待
 
喜欢这些词,因为不是一个会留连在过去感情中的人,所以羡慕为爱而活的人
至少,得到过,付出过,记住,回忆,继续开心,继续痛
他们,懂得爱情
我,继续摸索……


 
May 19

nothing...

总是不让人休息,每天都有要做的事,可是突然感觉很空虚,也许是因为刚刚解脱,惰性又从不知哪里的地方涌了出来……
每天两个单元,也许时间不够,可是超过界限脑子就开始拒绝记忆,无奈至极。
除此以外,读书笔记,外教考试,其实不是什么大事,可是觉得琐碎而懒得去理会,心里却总像装了件事,心理承受能力太差,没办法。
盼望5月快些过去,那之后,生活的一切总算应该慢下来渐渐进入轨道了吧……